……To Be Continued

I’m currently working on another post. I’m sending out this “pre-post”  because this next topic is taboo for most people. There are some of you out there that perhaps this topic has touched you and you’re family. It’s not something that I would wish upon my worst enemy. However, with that being said it is something that shattered my family a few years ago.

I don’t think many of you know about this, but there are a few of you out there that do know. Some of you might have heard through “the grapevine” about what happened. At this point I am being very vague in what topic I will be discussing. As this is going to be very tough for me to get through. However, it is something that I’ve been wanting to talk about since it happened. I’ve discussed it with a few, but have never really talked about it openly and in depth with “the masses.”

Many of you out there will not understand simply because you have never had to go through it. It’s not sympathy that I am seeking by writing this post. Not in the least bit. I don’t want people feeling sorry for me. It’s just something that I have to write about. Perhaps by my post you will understand why.

The only hint about this topic I will give you is this: In 2007 this was the 10th leading cause of death in the United States. (Go ahead Google it…)So yes this is going to be a serious post.

Have no fear though. I am still the happy, crazy, weird, cynical, and funny (ok funny to some not all…) Chad you all love. (Well most of you anyways) It’s just time that I get this off my chest. Below there are lyrics to a song that was sent to me by an absolutely amazing friend that I have always thought the world of. I’ve thought about writing about this for a long time now.

This song and talking with her helped me get to this point. (The song is by BarlowGirl. Apparently they are a Christian band. Now with that being said you all know that I am the furthest person away from being religious. However, I can’t deny the fact that they make some beautiful music….ohhh and their pretty f*ckin’ hot too! LOL)

Never Alone

I waited for you today
But you didnt show 
No No No 
I needed you today
So where did you go 

You told me to call
Said you’d be there
And though I haven’t seen you
Are you still there

I cried out with no reply
And I can’t feel you by my side 
So, I’ll hold tight to what I know
You’re here and I’m never alone.

And though I can not see you 
And I cant explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You’ve placed in my life (Whoaaaa)

We can not separate 
Cause your part of me 
And though your invisible
I’ll trust the unseen 


We can not separate
Cause your part of me 
And though your invisible
I’ll trust the unseen


Until Next Time, 

Spiral Out

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  1. this song got me thru the death of my cousin as well as the death of my grandfather ( that for all purposes was my father) i dont know if you know this but that is the reason why i moved to oklahoma.. it made me feel like he was still in my life more being in the place that he was and he loved. the song put a strong hold for me that helped me remeber he will always be there no matter how far away i am and how long time goes before i can see him again.. just thought i share a lil something since you share so much with us.. you are an amazing man chad and i have glad i have gotten to work with you a learn about you.

    1. Awww thanks Mishelle. They say time heals all wounds or that it gets easier over time. I’m just not so sure about that. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about Wendy. This song is very powerful. Although it is a Christian song it can be applied to a lot of different things. Losing someone is never easier no matter how it happens and music has gotten me through a lot of things…:P
      Ya know I always wondered why you’d pick Oklahoma to move to! LOL Now it all makes sense. 😛 I hope all is well with you!!!!!

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